I have to re-read “I am a Strange Loop” — for the 4th time. This time it is to save my mind. Body and mind is explainably linked, but sometimes the body manipulates the mind by making it thinks that the mind is in control. I am old and smart enuff to understand it :) . But still, in moment like this, I cannot overcome it easily.
No, I will not surrender. I am a control-freak, so this I must control the mind, the body. Not as easy as understanding how the linkages happen and work, I must detect any shortcut I can use. I shall overcome. I shall win. I am the winner, that’s me.